Ohhh God, I dont know why Im about to put this out there for everyone and their mother to see but its all in the name of Pacey & Joey so here goes, you have been warned!

Okay..this would be classified as a classic Season 3 Pacey and Joey "I-love-this-person-but-they-have-no-clue-and-we're-just-friends" situation.

I met him a year ago this Friday at a party. Besides the fact that he was fine as all hell there was something else that just drew me to him, I dunno what it was, but I had never seen him before, so I introduced myself.
You gotta understand that this is not like me. Im the girl that stands across the room from the guy and makes sexy eyes until he comes to me, but this time I didnt care, I made the first move.

So I introduced myself and he introduced himself and we talked and we hung out (well hang out, we still see each other at least once a week) in the same circle of friends for the past year.

And when I tell you that from the first conversation we had I knew there was something there Im not exaggerating. Sometimes he gives me these lingering looks and theres just this all around "more than friends" vibe with him.

But anyway, slowly I found out that he's from a different state and he moved to where I live for a job. We have so much in common, he loves basketball, as do I. We both love the hot weather, the same kind of music, we love to dance and party, we both have a seriously spiritual side and we can just talk and laugh about anything. I dont know how to explain it, its just there ya know?

So anyway, this entire year Ive had the feeling more and more that he likes me romantically and something could come of it when the time was right, but I was never positive. Sometimes we would be talking about something and he'd randomly bring up how life owuld be when he's married! An example is that I commented that his job makes him really responsible and he said out of the blue "Well yea, Im going ot need to be like that for my wife". And he constantly brought up things like that around me, which I found odd. Something else is that my family adores him! And he loves my mom, since he lives here alone she invites him over all the time and feeds him, she treats him like her 3rd son (she already has 2 boy). Anyway, I got all kinds of advice from my friends, and truthfully, all signs pointed to yes, he likes me the way I like him.

Well recently I found out that he does think Im gorgeous and great to hang out with etc etc etc but he has a bit of a problem with our age difference. He's 23, about to be 24 in a few months and I am 18. On top of that, his little sister is older than me! Which I know cant help the situation.
I dont see age as a problem, especially when two people get along as well as we do, I feel that age is nothing but a number. So lately, Ive felt different about him, it kind of put me off that age was a problem to him, and I suddenly had a mortal fear that he would get a girlfriend and I would hate her guts (he hasnt had one since he's been here, so I havent had to deal with that, thank heavens).

God I know this is long winded but my problem is, even though I know he kind of sees a problem with age (Im saying kind of because i didnt hear this straight from him, my best friend who wouldnt lie told me) he still acts the same to me, and theres still this vibe between us that makes me think he really likes or even loves me, but the age thing is still in the back of my mind. I think thats probably the reason why nothing has happened between us. I know it bothers him ,at least a little, but Im still really not sure.
But like I said before, unless Im reading too much into this, theres still something there between us when we hang out or talk.
Kinda like it was with PAcey & Joey, it was just there until they couldnt deny it anymore. Well I hope thats how this turns out, I hope something is just there, and we both wont be able to deny it anymore, regardless of age etc.

Well the latest development was that last night he was over and we were hanging out and he official dubbed me his "little sister" and dubbed himself my "big brother".
I know I know! Its like "cue the death music, you're in the inescapable "little sister" zone", but I cant seem to let go of that little glimmer of hope that we could still get together, and I still feel something between us.

So what should I do? Should I really try to be his good friend, his "little sister" and move on. Or should I go with my instincts and hang on to that little glimmer of hope? I know I could go the "Pacey" route and just spontaneously declare my feelings...but i really cant do that... waaay too risky, because Id rather have it how it is now and let things develop than ruin anything if he doesnt feel the same, and truthfully, Im sure he has some idea that Im into him, I happen to be an unconscious flirt, I cant help it somtimes

Im normally amazing at giving my friends advice but my own situation has stumped me. Advice Please

Edited by: HeYSuGaR6814 at: 5/30/01 8:38:00 pm