Hide~ 3.27.03 (Repost From POTL)

Hide

To what do I owe this gift, my friend?
My life, my love, my soul

I’ve been dancing with the devil way too long and it’s making me grow old
Making me grow old

Let’s leave Oh let’s get away
Get lost in time Where’s there’s no reason to hide
Let’s leave Oh let’s get away
Run in fields of time
Where there’s no reason to hide

What are you going to do with your gift, dear child?
Give life, give love, give soul

Divided is the one who dances
For the soul is so exposed
Exposed

Let’s leave Oh let’s get away
Get lost in time Where’s there no reason to hide
Let’s leave Oh let’s get away Run in fields of time
Where there’s no reason to hide

There’s no reason to hide
No reason to hide

*does happy dance* I love this Nikki! It is incredibly sweet... sigh... this is the way I always pictured their love... It was fun to read after watching the ep yesterday AND hehe I just watched Winter's Tale over break last week so I had it fresh in my mind.

Awesome job, you should ya know... write more stuff! I'd love it if you did... even if they were just awesome one parters like this, as it was I adored this so much! Thanks for posting it!

Evie

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NikNakPJLVR Loves Pacey and Joey Posts: 58 (3/27/03 2:57 pm) Reply	Hide~ 3.27.03 (Repost From POTL) Well, I posted this at POTL last summer, so I thought it might be a good idea to post it here at OTL, and contribute to this wonderful PJ fic thread. I hope everyone who read it before enjoys the story this second time around, and for those reading for the first time, I hope you like it, too. Thanks! I wrote this one-part fic about PJ based on the song “Hide” by Creed from their CD entitled “Weathered”. I just love the song and have been obsessed with it since I bought the CD. This story is written from Joey’s POV and the setting is the morning after “A Winter’s Tale”. Since we all know Four Stories left a LOT to be desired, I hope you enjoy my version. Disclaimer: I do not own anything related to Dawson’s Creek. Author’s Note: Thanks to my wonderful friend and beta, Kim. You are SO good to me and I appreciate everything, because without your help, anything I write wouldn't make sense. Also to my girl Roxy... thanks for reading it over as well babe. Love you both! ::muah:: Without further ado… Hide To what do I owe this gift, my friend? My life, my love, my soul While sitting on a chair right next to the window, I glance over at Pacey, lying peacefully in our bed. His eyes shut, still sleeping the morning away. My heart is bursting with love, just sitting here gazing at him. Especially after the amazing night we just shared. A smile creeps upon my face, reminiscing over all the incredible details of the love we made, the unbreakable bond we formed. This wonderful person gave me what I can only describe as a special unreturnable gift. I often wonder what I did to deserve so much love, passion, and excitement from him. My smile grows wider as I think about the fact that I made love to my very best friend last night. To the one person whom I have loved since the first time he kissed me. Over the course of the year, Pacey and I have weathered many storms, much insecurity, and many doubts. Some brought on by us, due to embarking on this whirlwind adventure called a romance. But through it all, one thing that remained the same, one factor that was a constant was that I love him with all my heart and soul. And I know that he feels the same way. Every detail of all Pacey has done for me is etched in my mind. I want him to know that I will never forget. A small giggle escapes from my lips. I wonder just how much Pacey enjoyed his striptease. I know for sure that I absolutely loved performing it. Is that a grin I see forming on Pacey’s face? He better be thinking about me. I’ve been dancing with the devil way too long and it’s making me grow old Making me grow old I ponder over how far we’ve come. Actually, over how far I have come. I have never felt so at peace. I always feel free and open when I am with Pacey. I can be myself with no airs or phoniness. And he still loves me, the entire imperfect person that I am. Being confused and unclear of what I wanted was an uncomfortable feeling to have. But, I knew what I wanted. I understood what was good for me. I recognized what would make me complete. But I was just too afraid to let go of the comfortable past and not brave enough to grab hold of the exciting future. I felt stale and stagnate, in this same tired familiar place that wasn’t welcoming anymore. Unfortunately, I felt this way many times in my relationship with Dawson. He was always this influence, this weight in my life and I didn’t know how to be me without him. I didn’t think I could actually be a person without him. Without having him to love and without having him as my friend. I never knew myself apart from him. I reflect back on this mastery I allowed him to have and it wasn’t healthy or purposeful, for either of us. I finally went for something, actually someone that meant a great deal to me. Someone that fulfilled my life, and added meaning to it. Although it wasn't too late, I realized I waited for too long. I was missing out. Life was there for the taking and I was too comfortable in my normal routine to allow change, to confront differences head on. To seize someone so exhilarating as it presented itself in front of me. In the form of Pacey Witter. I’ll always love Dawson, there’s no doubt about that. Simply because of who he is and what he has meant to me. That will never go away, nor do I want it to. But I am in love with Pacey. And it’s something I never expected, something I never anticipated. Which is one of the many things that makes it the most intoxicating feeling in the world. I don’t need to find myself apart from him. Because he enhances who I am, empowers how I feel, inspires what I do. That’s the healthiest thing I will ever know. He stirs in his sleep while my eyes continue to stay intently gazed upon him. Let’s leave Oh let’s get away Get lost in time Where’s there’s no reason to hide Let’s leave Oh let’s get away Run in fields of time Where there’s no reason to hide My mind overflows with thoughts of this unbelievable weekend. Last night, Pacey and I were in our own little world, together as one. Where nobody could touch us… except each other. I pull the blankets around me tighter as I visualize our shared desires and relive the passion inside of me for this man. It scares me to meditate on how I can feel so much for one person. And after so much time, I was able to freely express my feelings for him. In more ways than one. I smile. No longer did those feelings need to be concealed. However, is it wrong for me to slightly want to go in hiding again? Of course, not by suppressing my feelings for Pacey because that would be impossible. I never want to go through that much hurt and pain again. But I can’t help but want to just go. To be away from any and everything and just live, Pacey and me. Only the two of us together. Far away from our normal day-to-day life, our routine. But I sigh, knowing that we can’t have it that way. It isn’t reasonable. We have family and friends, responsibilities and duties. And I’m glad we can share those things together. We have this outlook on a beautiful future as a couple. Those secret moments, those swept away fantasies are better kept for our escapades at night. Where there really will be only the two of us. Which is the way we both enjoy it more. What are you going to do with your gift, dear child? Give life, give love, give soul I will always remember the unique, distinct moments. Every detail is branded on my mind and heart. The feel of Pacey’s touch. The way he brushed my hair. The overwhelming look of love in his eyes. His silence that aroused me, awakening my deepest longings. The way he never broke gaze with me as I undressed him. The moistness of his tongue intertwining with mine as we kissed deeply and thoroughly. It was like our very first kiss all over again. Actually, it could be defined as our first kiss. Because it was our first as long-overdue lovers. He waited until I was ready to share this with him. And although I gave him hell the beginning part of the weekend, with my own insecurities and doubts, he never wavered. He never strayed. He was sensitive with every stroke of his hand, caring with every unspoken word. I loved him even more for his patience and willingness to let me get over what I needed to in order to arrive at the point in my life when I wanted to completely sacrifice myself to him, with no reservation or hesitation. I hated that he thought I didn’t want him, that I didn’t want my first time with him. I couldn’t think of anybody else that I would want to share all of my “firsts” with. I had to deal with my own uncertainties and questions about myself, about us. It had nothing to do with wanting to be with him. That was never a question. I hope I made him understand that. He gave me this most erotic night of my life. It satisfied every dream I had. Every fantasy I conjured up. The wild part of this is, Pacey and I have only simply just begun. Divided is the one who dances For the soul is so exposed Exposed I turn my head back around to stare out the window, looking at the snow-covered ground. How peaceful and clean does fresh-fallen snow seem? I can relate to that feeling. It’s a relief to not be confused or torn anymore. Actually, now that I think about it, I haven’t been puzzled about what I should do or whom I should be with for a long time. Everything was made unnecessarily complicated because I didn’t want my friendship with Dawson to be ruined. I thought I couldn’t survive that. I tried with all my might to keep everything together, to bring it back to the way we were when younger. But it wasn’t possible. There was no going back in time. Nor should it have been. Why bury feelings that threatened to unveil themselves anyway? I couldn’t hide them any longer. From Dawson or Pacey or more importantly, myself. My heart was like an open book, easily accessible to anyone that could see. There’s no way I could mask what was so clearly written on my face and etched on my heart. Let’s leave Oh let’s get away Get lost in time Where’s there no reason to hide Let’s leave Oh let’s get away Run in fields of time Where there’s no reason to hide Adjusting myself to get more comfortable, I continue to stare out the window. I reflect back on happy times, good times with Pacey. Especially our summer at sea aboard True Love. It was the best time of my life. When I finally followed my heart and admitted to Pacey that I loved him, it was cleansing for my soul, healthy for my well-being. Because I knew it was the right thing to do. I wanted and needed to be wherever he was, which for that summer was sailing down the coast. I couldn’t let him go. I chuckle, thinking how sweet it was that Pacey took me to Disney World. I had so much fun! The best decision of my life was impulsive and spontaneous. Out of the ordinary for me, but I’ll never regret it a day in my life. Particularly since I spent it with Pacey. Sometimes I think Pacey and I just might have to do that again. Just get up and go, conveniently not mentioning it to our friends or family. Here I go again, slightly amused and grinning to myself. Thinking of ways to disappear with Pacey again. I want him all to myself. Is that being selfish? I sigh, knowing my own answer. I have to share him with the world. Just like he has to share me. But that’s okay. We don’t have to hide anymore. We don’t have to run away to discover ourselves or each other. We can face anything together, wherever we are. If last night was any indication of all the more wonderful, exciting times that await us, I am ready to meet any challenge free of limitation, with Pacey always by my side and forever as my biggest supporter. There’s no reason to hide No reason to hide I quietly get up, folding the blanket as I walk over to the bed. Placing the blanket at the foot of the bed, I climb back underneath the sheets, lying down next to Pacey with my head on his chest. His arm drapes across my chest, lightly touching my breasts. I smile as I feel him move to make sure I am comfortable. I tried unsuccessfully to not wake him up. “Hey sleepyhead.” He whispers in my ear, as his chin rests on my shoulder. Stray hairs sway against my ear as his breath tickles my skin. “Hmmm… I beg to differ. I have been awake for a long time, sweetie.” I pause before continuing. “Enjoying the view.” “So was I.” He teased, cuddling up closer to me. “You know, we missed the bus going back home?” “Are you concerned?” “Not in the least.” “I should have known that you weren’t sleeping this whole time.” “Well, I couldn’t, considering I had some things on my mind.” I asked silently. “What were you thinking about?” Awaiting his response, I intertwine my fingers with his. He crosses his legs over mine so that our bodies are even closer than before. I snuggle tighter against his chest, wanting to feel every inch of his body against mine. I love the sound of his chest rising against my back and the feel of his thumb caressing my skin. “Everything.” “Me too.” He kisses my shoulder and my neck as we lay there together, interwoven as one. Neither of us wanting to move, for it was heaven being in this position. We don’t say much for the rest of the morning. Just being next to each other is more than enough. Sounds don’t need to be uttered. Thoughts don’t need to be conveyed. That’s how it always is for Pacey and I. The expression on our faces when we look at each other, the unspoken passion our eyes mirror to each other, the love invisibly written on our hearts. There is nothing to mask, shield or hide from, even if we tried. But the best part about that is, there is absolutely no reason to anymore. The End
EviePJlvr Founder of Operation True Love! Pacey & Joey Die Hard, Joshua Jackson Bad Ass Chick. Posts: 179 (3/27/03 7:21 pm) Reply	Re: Hide~ 3.27.03 (Repost From POTL) does happy dance I love this Nikki! It is incredibly sweet... sigh... this is the way I always pictured their love... It was fun to read after watching the ep yesterday AND hehe I just watched Winter's Tale over break last week so I had it fresh in my mind. Awesome job, you should ya know... write more stuff! I'd love it if you did... even if they were just awesome one parters like this, as it was I adored this so much! Thanks for posting it! Evie Reading is good. Writing is even better.
truelovealways Loves Pacey and Joey Posts: 13 (3/27/03 8:19 pm) Reply	Re: Hide~ 3.27.03 (Repost From POTL) Awww...I don't think I caught this the first time around at potl, but it was wonderfully sweet. I just love all the warm and fuzzy, happy PJ fics.
SnoozyC Loves Pacey and Joey Posts: 40 (3/28/03 12:15 pm) Reply	sniffle Awwwwwwwwwwwwww sappy sniffle I've never read that one before, but it was beautiful hon, simply beautiful and EXACTLY how the post-nookie episode should have played out. You make me very happy
leep4joy Loves Pacey and Joey Posts: 34 (3/28/03 9:16 pm) Reply	Re: sniffle This was so great!! I wish this is how the show really went. Great job!! Please post more of your fics! ~Lee
PJfanLizzy Loves Pacey and Joey Posts: 20 (3/30/03 5:27 pm) Reply	:) This is what I'd like to see on the show. Amazing writing! I loved it so very much. Thank you for posting this.

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