Aluschka's Silent Yoga Retreat
Hi Guys..I am off to start Silent Yoga Retreat in a few hours.Never done it before..so I am freaking out a bit No eye contact or talking allowed only at designated times(nope no talking or eye contact during the meals either )
I have included my schedule. Meditation means sitting crossed leg, spine straight,no movement...OMG I can barely sit comfortably for an hour in a car how much my lower back and hips are killing me I was contemplating to rob the chemist and steal some Morphin-to be able to handle the pain
Pranayama means controled breathing-it might sound easy but it is brutally hard-again you either sit cross legged or lie in specific position. I have done this before and had some major freak-outs
Yoga practice will be basically brutal poses non-stop
You might ask why Am I doing it...it is the same like people ask why you put yourself through agonazing workouts and rigid diets..at the end all that pain is worth it
I want to ask you if you have a spare moment during the the weekend think of me... I will need your support
Due to the time difference I am reading this post after you have left but I will be thinking of you over the weekend, and I will send you some positive thoughts
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Oh thank you guys Em I do not know how to shut up myself..it will be a challenge
Sharyn I am still around it is 14:45 Friday avo-still at home running around like mad chicken
BTW here is the link: yoga.org.nz/new_plymouth.htm
if you want to see my current photo.My BF just updated our yoga site. My teacher Tria is 50 and looks like a Pixie. She is about inch shorter then me and weights only 49 kg I am 61 kg at the moment..I feel like an elephant next to her Boy is she lean too...all the time..no fat on that body..drives me nuts..she eats muffins,bread, noodles like there is no tommorow...some people
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I'm excited to hear about this weekend of yours... I don't know if I could do that.... I just did my first yoga class today, haha I don't know if I could handle being quiet and calme for that long .... I hope you enjoy yourself!!!!!
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OK, Aluschka...where are u?? Can you speak yet? We've been think'n about you and hope your weekend was a good one. You'll have to let us all know how you felt and what you went through for the past few days...can't wait to hear from ya!!
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Hey everyone i just got a message from Aluschka and she's a little wiped out right now but will be back on the board soon.
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Girls thank you so much LA you are soooo sweet and I am sorry to go MIA (Missing In Action) I promise I will give you full report as soon as I recover...I am smashed mentally and physically LOL
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Honey keeping my mouth just for that length of time would have the same effect on me too hehe.
I am shocking at the movies so i couldn't even imagine what you had to go through
Look forward to the goss
Hi girls I will get my butt into a gear and do report over the weekend I am just too full on to go into deep thinking ok!!!
Thanx for all your support..appreciate it very much
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Greeeeeetings lovely people of Emerge Fitness...yes it includes you too Darrin
My apologies to all of you who wanted to hear about my retreat...I just have not been in right frame of mind untill today If I had to share my experience with yogic comunity it would be slightly easier to throw around some heavy cosmic words,but use it here it would be same as taking someone off the street who never did any sport and throw gym slang on them..delts here and hamstring there...do a few sets with these reps...and person looks at you like yu are an alien Anyway here I go
It was brutal,brutal and more brutal But at the same time absolutely fantastic It was pisssing with heavy rain whole weekend so we could not do walking meditation...which would be total heaven to be able to walk in forest and move those freaky stiff hips But instead we did more sitting meditation
By Saturday night I was cooked,well done,fried,hammered and smashed physically and mentally.The schedule was running from 6 am till 10 pm as writen on the schedule list, but the time between sessions were shorter and meditation and posture sessions much longer...so basically we just had time to feed the face and if lucky shower and back to meditation room So Saturday night I am crawling back to our room..(remember it is winter here and there were no heaters in meditation room...unless we were doing poses I was frozen like a Siberian Husky ) I got to bed with all the clothes,no shower,no brushing my teeth...those things were the last on my mind...funny how the most important habits in my life were pushed right to the bottom when absoluty exhausted...I though...so this is a tiny bit-very tiny bit I must say-like to be in war...you just do your best to survive and expand as little energy as you can so you can make it through
My BF came in and I just gave him the biggiest saddest puppy dogs eyes...he came to bed and huged me tight I whispered (even thou it was silent retreat)"I am on a verge of hysteria, I am not sure if I can pull it through?" And you know what he said???? "Don't worry,you going to make it...your are champion-hardcore girl from Eastern block. All you have to do is to make it for the last 10 hours tommorow" OK...my first thought was..I am GOING TO SMASH HIM with something on his head and immediately second though came OR YOU CAN LAUGH about this situation So I did the typical me..I started to laugh like mad..but doing my best to keep it quiet Al cracked laughing too...and from theer I burst into tears and sobbed my heart out while he was holding me tight We fell asleep like that...but later I woke up and my body was throbing everywhere,so I spend most of the night awake in agony
On Sunday morning I practicaly crawled into meditation room.I made it through the day...but there were loads of tears of pain and some hard laughing...and I was not the only one. Two more girls were going through the same like me...so basically there was other laughter and tear going on..Our guru is very funny too,hard and funny...so we were cracking up during postures...phew try to do handstand and laugh at the same time...very hard let me tell you!!! It is part of the control of your body and mind at the same time!!
To close this babble off...I would say " I DO NOT RECOMED TO ANYONE WHO HAS NOT DONE YOGA EVERY DAY FOR THE PAST TWO YEARS AND ATTENDED AT LEAST 10 THREE DAY WORKSHOP OF INTENSE YOGA PRACTICE"
Otherwise for experience yogis GO FOR IT-HAVE A BLAST-It was the best thing I have done for clearing my mind. I have done loads of thinking,past ,present and future. What else could I do then when you sit there for hours in silence and only person you can talk is you!!! I ahd time to anlyze who I am,what makes me tick and where are my strong and weak points and how to work on those areas!!!
So yeap It was awesome and taxing for my nervous system at the same time. It took me two weeks to adjust back into society's way of living...I spoke to the other girl who cracked up and she said she has been in Limbo for those past two weeks and only now is she coming back to earth..LOL
Thank you for taking time to read such long post
To all of you..all the best in reaching for your dreams..whatever your golas maybe be..they are withing your reach...The difference between Failure and the Victory is HOW HARD DO YOU REALLY WANT IT????
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wow....sounds like quite the journey. Thanks for sharing it with all of us!! You are a very strong gal to go through that
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Hi LA..putting me in the spot here huh? Let's just say that I am in no hurry to attend another one in near future LOL...It was just soooo intense...phew I think another 2 or 3 years before I will consider it. I need to open up my hips a lot more Once I can sit more comfortably without screaming in agony it will be 50% easier!!! Thanx for the reply girl...I am sure you had to show plenty of courage yourself going through your rehab after that car acident